Each morning when she wakes up, she feels blessed to be able to see the
light again after in darkness the past seven hours, that was when her
whole being was at rest though her mind was wandering in dreamland. The fresh
air and soft morning dew hydrate her soul and for another day, she feels there
is life in her. She looks forward to seeing great things happening in the day
though she might not see all. It thrills her to bits thinking of the
surprises she will get; the nice people she will meet, a sweet mail from
someone - she hopes to get, meeting her mom and siblings and catching up some
chats or simply tending to the flowers and making sure they are getting enough
care to bloom beautifully. These are some rambling which resurface from the
core of her heart.
Life has not been too beautiful but her thoughts make it beautiful.
Sometimes, she feels she is lost in hopes, in dreams, but she still dares
to dream like there never is any defying factor to it. Though it is a far
reached hope to catch the glitters at the end of the tunnel, the hope is not
yet totally lost in the debris of life. It is not an easy task to achieve
triumphantly what she wholly desires. She could relate to the saying of her
people - it is
not easy to achieve the best; it is not difficult to get the worst. Indeed how true it is. Wise saying can sometimes
be a torch on a moonless night.
It is the year end now and she asks herself, what had she done the past
11 months? What is it that brings a significant change in her life and career?
Believe it or not, she does not like to make resolutions because her
resolutions will remain as they are till the end of December! Then again, some
of the things she likes to do are like self-empowerment which boosts her spirit
to look at the positive side of things; other than that, her commitment
in completing the tasks assigned to her – not to please her boss but more
towards her responsibility and fulfilling it. After all, she is paid.
Arggh…that familiar line which makes her ponder whether she lives to work or
she works to live. Whatever! What is important, she is surviving.
The sudden burst of fire crackers startles her. Oh! Why so soon when New
Year will only be celebrated in about three weeks’ time? Some people are
too anxious. She giggles. She is also wondering how the celebration will be
this year. Once, during the display of fireworks in her home town, the firecrackers were shooting sideways
instead of upwards. What a bad start of the year!
December is always a cold month; snow
in the west, rain in the east. Somehow in her heart there is always a flame
burning which makes her feel the warmth , be it for herself or her special
thoughts for those she cares. Before the month ends, she will be gone but
not too long.
